Here is your chance. :-|
Aug. 15th, 2006 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
per_soloOk, anyone wanting to skip over this one should, as I'm going to pose a few serious questions. Anyone that actually reads? Ponder, think, and try to respond. I wouldn't ask if I didn't want/need to know.
Ok. This follows up with a few of my posts on trying to figure out exactly what the hell has been wrong with me for a while. This mostly goes out to the "local" friends, but anyone who knows me, has seen me write (Even here on LJ), or whatever, feel free to chime in as well.
I've been wildly erratic in the several months before this one. I'm attempting to self-diagnose, but I have no idea on the number of problems out there, and everyone has different experiences, hence I'm kinda trolling for ideas.
The major thing (Which for a long time I downplayed as minor) is Depression. I know several people who understand how that one works, and I will admit I never realized just how deep that rabbit hole can go.
Another that has pieces that sound accurate is "Acute Stress Disorder", and whereas I never hallucinated (at least, I don't think I ever did), some symptoms that Wiki had on this sound pretty damned accurate as well. Enough that I almost had the epiphany moment with it, too. But again, pieces of it sound off.
I have a problem committing to things, as my brain will bat things back and forth, trying to figure out the best decision to make. Not sure if that's a symptom of something else, or not, but it factors in.
What other ones out there should I investigate? I've never had the idea to look before really (or if I did, I was mired in my own bullshit at the time), but am now.
Big question from you, I assume. Am I better?
Honestly? I don't know. I feel better, I'm trying to take positive steps (and trying to keep positive thoughts going), but these are things that I'm way too close on to be able to say so accurately. That's not second-guessing myself (that's a whole other kettle of fish), that's just me trying to be brutally honest with myself, as well. So, throw out ideas. I'm sure we can make this fun, somehow. :-)
Hell, I'll even screen comments this time around, just so you feel a little safer in making such comments. And, I should mention that screening also works for anonymous comments, if you don't want to attach your name to something.
Ok. This follows up with a few of my posts on trying to figure out exactly what the hell has been wrong with me for a while. This mostly goes out to the "local" friends, but anyone who knows me, has seen me write (Even here on LJ), or whatever, feel free to chime in as well.
I've been wildly erratic in the several months before this one. I'm attempting to self-diagnose, but I have no idea on the number of problems out there, and everyone has different experiences, hence I'm kinda trolling for ideas.
The major thing (Which for a long time I downplayed as minor) is Depression. I know several people who understand how that one works, and I will admit I never realized just how deep that rabbit hole can go.
Another that has pieces that sound accurate is "Acute Stress Disorder", and whereas I never hallucinated (at least, I don't think I ever did), some symptoms that Wiki had on this sound pretty damned accurate as well. Enough that I almost had the epiphany moment with it, too. But again, pieces of it sound off.
I have a problem committing to things, as my brain will bat things back and forth, trying to figure out the best decision to make. Not sure if that's a symptom of something else, or not, but it factors in.
What other ones out there should I investigate? I've never had the idea to look before really (or if I did, I was mired in my own bullshit at the time), but am now.
Big question from you, I assume. Am I better?
Honestly? I don't know. I feel better, I'm trying to take positive steps (and trying to keep positive thoughts going), but these are things that I'm way too close on to be able to say so accurately. That's not second-guessing myself (that's a whole other kettle of fish), that's just me trying to be brutally honest with myself, as well. So, throw out ideas. I'm sure we can make this fun, somehow. :-)
Hell, I'll even screen comments this time around, just so you feel a little safer in making such comments. And, I should mention that screening also works for anonymous comments, if you don't want to attach your name to something.
