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per_soloAnd, much as always, it puts my "contemplative" thinking cap on.
That tends to be an annoyance to me at some times..when you contemplate, you remember things. And, speaking personally, I don't need to remember and dwell on every mistake I've made in the last 8 years or so.
Others have said it better than I...as did parts of the two "lists" I posted recently.
Friends will enter our lives, and exit our lives. We can enjoy the times we have, or had, but what happens when those times are gone and the friends leave, or we have to leave, for one reason or another?
Well, we can either dwell over such losses, and allow ourselves to become bitter...or, we can hope that our paths will cross again. Under better skies. The trick with that one is that sometimes such loss is under horribly chaotic circumstance. Mine a while ago falls under many different factors.
Am I better now than then? Academic. I believe so, but am far from an objective opinion on the matter. Even with reinforcement from a few others, who got to watch, I still just feel like "me", though the changes do appear to my eye now and then. Did I lose people and things? Yup. For my own sanity (eventual) and theirs. Do I still miss many of those people? HELL yes.
But, if I dwell on it, it's going to make me insane. As above, the best I can really do is take the lesson, improve the parts of me that were broken, and continue on. If things (friendships, Apt, etc..) are meant to be? They'll be. Each one of us is at vastly different points in life..where we actually are, where we are mentally, where we think we should be.
But, we all will lose things that are of major importance to us. That's just how the insanity called life goes. But, #2 of the last list I posted sums it up for me.."When you lose in life, don't lose the lesson".
I've learned an awful lot in the last several years (and believe me, it's really hard to look back even two years...so much has changed, good and bad), and yes, will admit that there is quite a bit I miss, in that indescribable way. But to dwell on that, just because my life is rougher now, is to lose the lessons that were hard taught.
Life in progress. :-) The song that really kicked this off? "You can't always get what you want", by the Rolling Stones. A song which always makes me think of the movie "The Big Chill". There are times I love how my mind free associates like that. ;-)
That tends to be an annoyance to me at some times..when you contemplate, you remember things. And, speaking personally, I don't need to remember and dwell on every mistake I've made in the last 8 years or so.
Others have said it better than I...as did parts of the two "lists" I posted recently.
Friends will enter our lives, and exit our lives. We can enjoy the times we have, or had, but what happens when those times are gone and the friends leave, or we have to leave, for one reason or another?
Well, we can either dwell over such losses, and allow ourselves to become bitter...or, we can hope that our paths will cross again. Under better skies. The trick with that one is that sometimes such loss is under horribly chaotic circumstance. Mine a while ago falls under many different factors.
Am I better now than then? Academic. I believe so, but am far from an objective opinion on the matter. Even with reinforcement from a few others, who got to watch, I still just feel like "me", though the changes do appear to my eye now and then. Did I lose people and things? Yup. For my own sanity (eventual) and theirs. Do I still miss many of those people? HELL yes.
But, if I dwell on it, it's going to make me insane. As above, the best I can really do is take the lesson, improve the parts of me that were broken, and continue on. If things (friendships, Apt, etc..) are meant to be? They'll be. Each one of us is at vastly different points in life..where we actually are, where we are mentally, where we think we should be.
But, we all will lose things that are of major importance to us. That's just how the insanity called life goes. But, #2 of the last list I posted sums it up for me.."When you lose in life, don't lose the lesson".
I've learned an awful lot in the last several years (and believe me, it's really hard to look back even two years...so much has changed, good and bad), and yes, will admit that there is quite a bit I miss, in that indescribable way. But to dwell on that, just because my life is rougher now, is to lose the lessons that were hard taught.
Life in progress. :-) The song that really kicked this off? "You can't always get what you want", by the Rolling Stones. A song which always makes me think of the movie "The Big Chill". There are times I love how my mind free associates like that. ;-)
