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per_soloTonight is COJ meeting/party.
The convention is ramping up, and so far, they are missing a few positions they need filled. I keep getting minor hints that I should go for this, or go for that.
The trick, as I've succinctly said before here, is that I'm no longer that person. I'm someone new, in that regard. And I have to be damned careful, every time I'm near them. I know the void within, the one that would be so easy to just travel back, as if none of the past few years had happened, and just be involved like I used to be. And I'll always want to see them do great..but, my capacity for tolerance of stupid insanity is pretty low.
And even then, it still would do nothing for the "void". :-P
But, as with the elections that will happen in a few months, there are things that no one is thinking of. Tonight, I'll likely ask a question that will piss off at least one person, but I can't in good faith NOT think of it.
And, what worries me more is that it worries me in the first place that my intentions will be misinterpreted. Nothing I can do about it..as pulling back (or pulling my punch) will be cheating myself, but still...it's too bad that *I* have that knowledge of how people generally look at things. I can see that my question will be viewed as an open attack. *shrug*
In other news, finished Season 1 of Las Vegas. And the problem with watching this show? It makes me want to go back there, even just for a few days. :-) Damn the media mind.
Ah well, talked out for now, will see how this evening goes, and finish up my paper on Deaf President Now for class Monday.
Hope your weekend is going well.
The convention is ramping up, and so far, they are missing a few positions they need filled. I keep getting minor hints that I should go for this, or go for that.
The trick, as I've succinctly said before here, is that I'm no longer that person. I'm someone new, in that regard. And I have to be damned careful, every time I'm near them. I know the void within, the one that would be so easy to just travel back, as if none of the past few years had happened, and just be involved like I used to be. And I'll always want to see them do great..but, my capacity for tolerance of stupid insanity is pretty low.
And even then, it still would do nothing for the "void". :-P
But, as with the elections that will happen in a few months, there are things that no one is thinking of. Tonight, I'll likely ask a question that will piss off at least one person, but I can't in good faith NOT think of it.
And, what worries me more is that it worries me in the first place that my intentions will be misinterpreted. Nothing I can do about it..as pulling back (or pulling my punch) will be cheating myself, but still...it's too bad that *I* have that knowledge of how people generally look at things. I can see that my question will be viewed as an open attack. *shrug*
In other news, finished Season 1 of Las Vegas. And the problem with watching this show? It makes me want to go back there, even just for a few days. :-) Damn the media mind.
Ah well, talked out for now, will see how this evening goes, and finish up my paper on Deaf President Now for class Monday.
Hope your weekend is going well.
