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Jul. 17th, 2009 03:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
per_soloJust e-mailed one of my advisers about the practicality of starting to work while still wrapping up my degree.
I'm down to just a little over a year and I'm out of school.
Money is horrible right now.
I have grants and waivers kicking in for this next year..and that may create a problem for next summer session (summer is always considered an odd beast for figuring out how to fund), but if I were to start working, while still going to school, would that go away...I think she'll be able to answer such questions.
I'm tired of doing school Full Time, but am aware that's part of what I signed up for.
I'm tired of living off of loans...and loans from family, support from friends...
That's not to say it's unappreciated...I think I need never feel unloved or unsupported, as I've had family and friends helping me for quite a while. Loans here and there, gifts in other places. Hell, even just picking up a lunch (yes, Royal, Thank you so much for yesterday), or dinner anymore is enough to cause me to be mixed...(and to almost break down into tears)
I remember many times when I've had money, doing the same thing. Covering a meal for friends, helping out with gas money...all that "little" stuff that makes life a little easier to survive.
It sucks being on the receiving end of that. It also helps you realize just how many folks there are out there who are wanting to help, when and how they can.
So this is a thank you to all those people. And a little note that I'm not just sitting on my bum doing nothing. Money is a pretty consistent worry for me anymore (daily? Hourly? Maybe even more frequent than that), as are good grades (or, in the case of Economics, just passing grades...numbers and concepts behind numbers make my brain hurt), but I'm trying to get to a point where I don't feel like a leech so much.
Not a cry for "Oh, go show me some love", as I know that. And know it so deep down that sometimes I may not show it. But, more of a "Life is sucktastic for a LOT of people right now...everyone is feeling the pain of money, or lack of...".
I just needed to note that it is tough, but I'm trying to do something. If I can find a way, in my head most of all, to work while doing school, I'll do it now..especially if I can find a way to not lose my grants and waivers..and if I'm in a holding pattern a while longer, then I'll be in that pattern a little longer. Trying hard not to let my sanity shred, but I do think that's part of this process.
I've made it through 3 and a half years of school (though, with just one class that first semester)...I've got a year left. So much less of school ahead of me than behind.
And I just needed to get some of this worry out.
I'm down to just a little over a year and I'm out of school.
Money is horrible right now.
I have grants and waivers kicking in for this next year..and that may create a problem for next summer session (summer is always considered an odd beast for figuring out how to fund), but if I were to start working, while still going to school, would that go away...I think she'll be able to answer such questions.
I'm tired of doing school Full Time, but am aware that's part of what I signed up for.
I'm tired of living off of loans...and loans from family, support from friends...
That's not to say it's unappreciated...I think I need never feel unloved or unsupported, as I've had family and friends helping me for quite a while. Loans here and there, gifts in other places. Hell, even just picking up a lunch (yes, Royal, Thank you so much for yesterday), or dinner anymore is enough to cause me to be mixed...(and to almost break down into tears)
I remember many times when I've had money, doing the same thing. Covering a meal for friends, helping out with gas money...all that "little" stuff that makes life a little easier to survive.
It sucks being on the receiving end of that. It also helps you realize just how many folks there are out there who are wanting to help, when and how they can.
So this is a thank you to all those people. And a little note that I'm not just sitting on my bum doing nothing. Money is a pretty consistent worry for me anymore (daily? Hourly? Maybe even more frequent than that), as are good grades (or, in the case of Economics, just passing grades...numbers and concepts behind numbers make my brain hurt), but I'm trying to get to a point where I don't feel like a leech so much.
Not a cry for "Oh, go show me some love", as I know that. And know it so deep down that sometimes I may not show it. But, more of a "Life is sucktastic for a LOT of people right now...everyone is feeling the pain of money, or lack of...".
I just needed to note that it is tough, but I'm trying to do something. If I can find a way, in my head most of all, to work while doing school, I'll do it now..especially if I can find a way to not lose my grants and waivers..and if I'm in a holding pattern a while longer, then I'll be in that pattern a little longer. Trying hard not to let my sanity shred, but I do think that's part of this process.
I've made it through 3 and a half years of school (though, with just one class that first semester)...I've got a year left. So much less of school ahead of me than behind.
And I just needed to get some of this worry out.
