Tired...

[per_solo]

I'll get to part 2 of the Randy story at some point. It keeps tapping at the back of my mind...so it'll come into existence.

Thank you all. I've known for a while now that I'm supported, and well supported, by friends and family. And also aware that others have gone through similar, or just have enormous hearts. It is very nice.

Part of the lag is that I have too many other things that are taking priority.

Crys and I are not in danger of losing the Apt....but, we have approx $80 to coast to 8/19. We've had friends and family be kind enough to loan us cash, which has kept us from crashing hard up to this point. We are only close to crashing..but at least we'll have the Apt. to do that in. I am thankful for the loans, and pure gifts...and realize that if this situation comes close to hitting again, I may just request Marsh Cards. :-) It was pulling teeth for me to justify going to Marsh today, just for a few things...and I likely should have gotten bread, too. *shrugs* Grilled Cheese is a cheap, easy dinner or lunch.

School is coming along...Econ is being as rough as I expected, but I am passing...and if I can keep things going as they are, I will get through this summer.

Hmmm...Camp is in 2 weeks. Gas money, some food...I'll deal with that in two weeks.

*pause as needy cat DEMANDS affection*

Ok...where was I. School. School is coming along. Fees just hit, and then one grant came out of that...

Talked to adviser, who advised against getting a job...for two reasons. The primary reason is that I'm in my senior year...and classes are rougher in senior year (go figure. ;-))...the other reason was that for what I'm going into, it is extremely competitive...and trying to do that while doing school F/T to finish my degree, would not work in my favor.

Add in that damn near EVERYONE I know right now is in chaotic times. Whether it's money, or friend chaos, or family drama, family illness...everyone is having a rough time right now.

Given how blessed I am, it makes me feel like a twit bitching..but, the fact that I'm in good company on the stresses makes it a little easier to bear..

So, not a lot else to add. Back to school...have a quiz due Thursday, and a reaction paper due on Sunday. And a busy weekend on top of that. Followed by the last week of summer classes. And, at some point, I need to change my mood theme...still love "Eternal Sunshine", but thinking I want to find something a little different..

Yay.

I hope your week is good, or if not good, that it improves.

Comments

[smithwick1974.livejournal.com]

goddamn it man!!! carrie and I have a little, and we can give what we have. I'm coming by on friday to give, and you two are going to take it!

I'm not annoyed(even though it sounds like it)I want to be of some help and support, and we're going to be. so there.

[per_solo]

*hugs* I'll ask you to take that up with Crys. :-) I don't want anyone making their own lives rougher...we're cutting back on a bit...like I said, coasting. And I know things ain't exactly been easy on you, either. All is survivable, it's just getting there..

Though, I won't complain about a little bit of hanging out time with you two.

[smithwick1974.livejournal.com]

oh fuck off. i wasn't making a request. I made a statement. Now shut up and accept it :-)

people have helped us. so there.

[per_solo]

*nods* Way off. :-)

Fair point. And I know I've helped others too...and am always aware of two friends I still owe a bit to (who are top of the list when I'm making money again out in the world). I just hate being in that position. I think a psychologist would have a field day with me of late.

[smithwick1974.livejournal.com]

welcome to being friends with me . this isn't a loan. this is friends helping friends. so sit back and take it.

I am all too familiar with that flavor of pride, and it isn't a fun thing. I get that. more than you know. However, this isn't you being dependent on me and carrie. this is about seeing a friend stumbling a bit, and needing strong shoulders to balance so they can walk. I have had to lean on the shoulders of another...albeit reluctantly, but still. Point is that at this moment, I can walk, and I have broad shoulders.

Let me be your friend, and shut the fuck up. Simple as that. :-)

[per_solo]

*silence*

[smithwick1974.livejournal.com]

right now my life is rough because of what i see my dad going through, but if I just focus on him and my pain, and forget about my friends then I am being selfish.

btw this isn't a loan...capice?

[per_solo]

Capice. :-) *HUGS*

[crysthewolf.livejournal.com]

ROFL. Wow.

Ron, I can say that having seen you go through a lot of shit, I am glad that you're in a position where you get to give something back. I know how GOOD that feels, too.

[crysthewolf.livejournal.com]

(which is how I beat back MY pride. HA!!! LOL)

[echoweaver.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* I'm glad to hear you have the apartment locked up for at least a while longer.

There is an end date to all this. You will get your degree. And while that isn't going to make it automagically all better, I believe it will GET better. I admire you for sticking with it this far. I know it will be OK.

[defixione.livejournal.com]

I echo Ron's sentiment. If you guys don't have enough groceries, I'm going to Aldi -with or without either of you- and I will buy some groceries for you. No arguments.

Besides, I still owe you guys for various foods! ;)

[crysthewolf.livejournal.com]

Daw foodz.

Of course we would be more than rewarded by your company too.