Musings on 2006.
Dec. 31st, 2006 01:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
per_soloWow. What a year it has been.
As I realize I'm still up, my brain is being spellbound by the good and bad of 2006.
This year, for the most part, has been almost completely evenly balanced. I accomplished just a few things I set out to do, but came out of the year much better than 1 year ago. A mix of the good bits, and the bad bits. And the dividing portion of almost exactly half the year on each.
This year? I understand depression, much better than I did a year ago. I'm on a better path, as far as school, and having a goal for that.
I've come out of the shell/hole I'd created for myself, or at least think I have (and since perception is reality...). And have a bunch of people to thank for that. And the downside knowledge of a few to not be near. I understand my limitations better, and what I need from others to survive/thrive.
I can't be pissy at 2006 too much, as with all the pain and misery, it has given me a goal/purpose, and a much better sense of self. And whereas I have a few fears (sorry, the thought of going for a full bachelor's degree in EM scares the hell out of me, for obvious reasons), they aren't crippling me now.
2006 has also been the "year of the flashback", that neat thing where suddenly, a whole bunch of shit from your past (usually people you haven't seen in forever, some with good reason) comes forward, so that you have to deal with it. Whether that is a "once and for all" or a recurring theme, I don't know. In some cases, it's been good (For those who were curious, ran into BeccaJo/Dingo. She says Hi, and hopes all are doing well), and in others, well, let's just say it's not so good.
I know what I want, and where I want to be. And also the knowledge that what I want and what I can have/accomplish are different things. So, I'll be thankful for that balance, as well. So nope, not the best of worlds, but not the worst, either.
So, to 2006. I'm glad to see you go. You weren't the worst year in my life, but I have a very hard time remembering years that were worse. We'll chalk that up to how close it's been. Either way, don't let the door hit ya.
To 2007. Welcome. I have big plans in store for you, and I know we won't let each other down. Let's see what we can do to make 2006 a memory.
As I realize I'm still up, my brain is being spellbound by the good and bad of 2006.
This year, for the most part, has been almost completely evenly balanced. I accomplished just a few things I set out to do, but came out of the year much better than 1 year ago. A mix of the good bits, and the bad bits. And the dividing portion of almost exactly half the year on each.
This year? I understand depression, much better than I did a year ago. I'm on a better path, as far as school, and having a goal for that.
I've come out of the shell/hole I'd created for myself, or at least think I have (and since perception is reality...). And have a bunch of people to thank for that. And the downside knowledge of a few to not be near. I understand my limitations better, and what I need from others to survive/thrive.
I can't be pissy at 2006 too much, as with all the pain and misery, it has given me a goal/purpose, and a much better sense of self. And whereas I have a few fears (sorry, the thought of going for a full bachelor's degree in EM scares the hell out of me, for obvious reasons), they aren't crippling me now.
2006 has also been the "year of the flashback", that neat thing where suddenly, a whole bunch of shit from your past (usually people you haven't seen in forever, some with good reason) comes forward, so that you have to deal with it. Whether that is a "once and for all" or a recurring theme, I don't know. In some cases, it's been good (For those who were curious, ran into BeccaJo/Dingo. She says Hi, and hopes all are doing well), and in others, well, let's just say it's not so good.
I know what I want, and where I want to be. And also the knowledge that what I want and what I can have/accomplish are different things. So, I'll be thankful for that balance, as well. So nope, not the best of worlds, but not the worst, either.
So, to 2006. I'm glad to see you go. You weren't the worst year in my life, but I have a very hard time remembering years that were worse. We'll chalk that up to how close it's been. Either way, don't let the door hit ya.
To 2007. Welcome. I have big plans in store for you, and I know we won't let each other down. Let's see what we can do to make 2006 a memory.
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Date: 2006-12-31 07:33 pm (UTC)