And, forgot to mention..
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per_soloThis last weekend, Circle of Janus meeting.
Nomination for offices..I was nominated for SEVERAL (Including Conchair 2010).
I declined all of them.
Partly, because I'm just not "there" anymore. I'm still trying to help friends, I'll still advise when it's needed or asked, but as far as leading that group right now? Just not there.
And, as was mentioned for my nomination for 2010, yes, I'll have my degree then (at current plans), but that's also the year if I recall correctly, that I would be GETTING the degree. :-) And, at this rate, I have no clue where I'll be..and a part of me wonders what I'll be at that point, as well. The distance between there, and here. And yes, the Universe thing comes to mind, but that's a big deal. Around 2004 and 2005 (and some of 2003), I spent an awful lot of time feeling like I HAD to stick with certain things, regarding my convention. I had been elected, and had several new ideas I wanted to see done, in some cases, for no other reason than to prove that they COULD be done if people would think outside the box, and that limited a HELL of a lot of other options. Zigs, Zags, and etc. Ultimately, it was a piece to point me toward what I'm studying, but at the time, it was an overwhelming feeling of being trapped, and with several things in process, it's not something I'm going to let happen again.
Plus, I'm not as confident as I want to be on the club again. Things may be changing, but they may just as well slide back into the age old patterns that have damn near killed it before.
I did make a few nominations. Because that is something I feel I can do to help move a few things in the direction they should go. There are voices that feel strongly for the convention/club, and the direction it should go in, and if anyone has that strong a feeling? It should be acted on. AND, if I didn't nominate someone who felt they should be in a position? Why not nominate yourself? Seriously, if you feel that strongly, go for it. :-) Though, I'll stand by and say that anyone who does? Anyone going for a position? Ponder, think about what you want to achieve with such, and why. And gather like minded individuals.
I just know that right now, that is not the right spot for me. And I appreciate those who feel I'm a strong leader. To be honest, that's a bit more of a boost that I needed to hear, and didn't realize it, and it helped. But, I'm not THAT leader right now. 4 years ago was a different time, just as 2 years ago was a different time for leading the convention. But right now, I'm right here, with one foot moving in front of the other.
Maybe not the best approach, definitely not the worst. But, the one that's here at this moment.
Nomination for offices..I was nominated for SEVERAL (Including Conchair 2010).
I declined all of them.
Partly, because I'm just not "there" anymore. I'm still trying to help friends, I'll still advise when it's needed or asked, but as far as leading that group right now? Just not there.
And, as was mentioned for my nomination for 2010, yes, I'll have my degree then (at current plans), but that's also the year if I recall correctly, that I would be GETTING the degree. :-) And, at this rate, I have no clue where I'll be..and a part of me wonders what I'll be at that point, as well. The distance between there, and here. And yes, the Universe thing comes to mind, but that's a big deal. Around 2004 and 2005 (and some of 2003), I spent an awful lot of time feeling like I HAD to stick with certain things, regarding my convention. I had been elected, and had several new ideas I wanted to see done, in some cases, for no other reason than to prove that they COULD be done if people would think outside the box, and that limited a HELL of a lot of other options. Zigs, Zags, and etc. Ultimately, it was a piece to point me toward what I'm studying, but at the time, it was an overwhelming feeling of being trapped, and with several things in process, it's not something I'm going to let happen again.
Plus, I'm not as confident as I want to be on the club again. Things may be changing, but they may just as well slide back into the age old patterns that have damn near killed it before.
I did make a few nominations. Because that is something I feel I can do to help move a few things in the direction they should go. There are voices that feel strongly for the convention/club, and the direction it should go in, and if anyone has that strong a feeling? It should be acted on. AND, if I didn't nominate someone who felt they should be in a position? Why not nominate yourself? Seriously, if you feel that strongly, go for it. :-) Though, I'll stand by and say that anyone who does? Anyone going for a position? Ponder, think about what you want to achieve with such, and why. And gather like minded individuals.
I just know that right now, that is not the right spot for me. And I appreciate those who feel I'm a strong leader. To be honest, that's a bit more of a boost that I needed to hear, and didn't realize it, and it helped. But, I'm not THAT leader right now. 4 years ago was a different time, just as 2 years ago was a different time for leading the convention. But right now, I'm right here, with one foot moving in front of the other.
Maybe not the best approach, definitely not the worst. But, the one that's here at this moment.
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Date: 2007-10-09 05:13 am (UTC)not sure if i'm really one to move the club forward. i try but i guess we'll just see now won't we. :) still felt loved and glad you felt love as well.