*sigh*

[per_solo]

Tonight is COJ meeting/party.

The convention is ramping up, and so far, they are missing a few positions they need filled. I keep getting minor hints that I should go for this, or go for that.

The trick, as I've succinctly said before here, is that I'm no longer that person. I'm someone new, in that regard. And I have to be damned careful, every time I'm near them. I know the void within, the one that would be so easy to just travel back, as if none of the past few years had happened, and just be involved like I used to be. And I'll always want to see them do great..but, my capacity for tolerance of stupid insanity is pretty low.

And even then, it still would do nothing for the "void". :-P

But, as with the elections that will happen in a few months, there are things that no one is thinking of. Tonight, I'll likely ask a question that will piss off at least one person, but I can't in good faith NOT think of it.

And, what worries me more is that it worries me in the first place that my intentions will be misinterpreted. Nothing I can do about it..as pulling back (or pulling my punch) will be cheating myself, but still...it's too bad that *I* have that knowledge of how people generally look at things. I can see that my question will be viewed as an open attack. *shrug*

In other news, finished Season 1 of Las Vegas. And the problem with watching this show? It makes me want to go back there, even just for a few days. :-) Damn the media mind.

Ah well, talked out for now, will see how this evening goes, and finish up my paper on Deaf President Now for class Monday.

Hope your weekend is going well.

Comments

[thedruidbear.livejournal.com]

Dude...just speak your mind and if they misinterpret it, screw them. If they are too ignorant, or too proud, or too whatever to see that someone is trying to help them, let them go on and struggle. It is their choice, either by their arrogance and/or their ignorance, that will put them in the situation that YOU warned them about.

I am sorry, I am a bit jaded by that group and while I am still friends with some of them (who saw that I was offering constructive criticism), the ones who saw my suggestions as an attack on their character can continue to struggle and stumble without my help (not that I can be THAT helpful now that I am down here).

Life is all about change and you are doing it, living it, breathing it. From what I've seen of that COJ group, they are stuck.

Peace,

Bear

[per_solo]

I spoke my mind. The person who I thought would take offense apparently did at first, but I had 2 other people, relatively new, THANK me for asking that question, as they'd had the same one in mind. You may be surprised, as it is pride and arrogance that is creating at least a minor issue.

Strangely, most of those people you refer to? Are gone. Now it's dealing with the fact that people I thought better of have become some of "those people" *sigh* It's just an annoying cluster. If it weren't for a few friends, I wouldn't even bother to the small extent I am now.

And, well, a few of them are still making the stumbling steps that bother me. The difference now? I've got true proof (and keep getting the "well, these are volunteer organizations..they work differently").

Feh. :-) I give COJ credit, the new blood that has taken charge? Have a shot, and have done good hte last few years..but, there are still opinions and ideologies that will drag it out/down. Grrr...