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per_soloOk. First final of the day is done, and I feel ok on it.
Am debating going back and sleeping some more, even though I feel better than I did at O:MG this morning. The "bile" taste is gone, but the general nausea is still there.
90% sure it's finals stress, as I'm not running a fever.
Despise the idea of sleeping now, though I'm sure i need it. That switch in my head is from when I was depressed, and just wanted to SLEEP, and SLEEP, and SLEEP SOME MORE.
The depression did a number on me, in regards to trusting myself when I feel I should get some sleep, or may be getting too much. Such a fine line.
Add to that, the final at 5:00 is the one I'm REALLY worried about. I've got certain accounting terms and ideas down, but accounting makes my head swim. It's that whole left vs right brain capacity, I think. I'm much better at seeing intangibles, and I don't know how to explain that. Put concrete figures and ways that things HAVE to be done, and I start to feel like I'm flailing.
Add in outside factors (I've had a few things and thoughts from the past, and past judgment calls coming back to haunt me, in my head), and you've got me worn and a little frazzled at the edges.
The amused part? Today, for fun, I listened to "The Monarch of the Glen", off of "Fragile Things", an audio compilation by Neil Gaiman. Listening to him do Wednesday's voice (from American Gods) was a treat. And will finish listening to that story on my way to my next final.
Edit: Add in, that it's currently raining outside...I can hear it (2 windows in this bedroom), and for some reason, rain has always made it easier for me to sleep. One day, I'll research why that is..the varied theories that others who feel similar have devised. For now, I'll take my cue for a 2 hour nap. If my body let's me sleep that long. Though, will set the alarm for 3:00, to be safe. Plenty of time to get back to campus and take the final.
Am debating going back and sleeping some more, even though I feel better than I did at O:MG this morning. The "bile" taste is gone, but the general nausea is still there.
90% sure it's finals stress, as I'm not running a fever.
Despise the idea of sleeping now, though I'm sure i need it. That switch in my head is from when I was depressed, and just wanted to SLEEP, and SLEEP, and SLEEP SOME MORE.
The depression did a number on me, in regards to trusting myself when I feel I should get some sleep, or may be getting too much. Such a fine line.
Add to that, the final at 5:00 is the one I'm REALLY worried about. I've got certain accounting terms and ideas down, but accounting makes my head swim. It's that whole left vs right brain capacity, I think. I'm much better at seeing intangibles, and I don't know how to explain that. Put concrete figures and ways that things HAVE to be done, and I start to feel like I'm flailing.
Add in outside factors (I've had a few things and thoughts from the past, and past judgment calls coming back to haunt me, in my head), and you've got me worn and a little frazzled at the edges.
The amused part? Today, for fun, I listened to "The Monarch of the Glen", off of "Fragile Things", an audio compilation by Neil Gaiman. Listening to him do Wednesday's voice (from American Gods) was a treat. And will finish listening to that story on my way to my next final.
Edit: Add in, that it's currently raining outside...I can hear it (2 windows in this bedroom), and for some reason, rain has always made it easier for me to sleep. One day, I'll research why that is..the varied theories that others who feel similar have devised. For now, I'll take my cue for a 2 hour nap. If my body let's me sleep that long. Though, will set the alarm for 3:00, to be safe. Plenty of time to get back to campus and take the final.
