Amused...

[per_solo]

Ok. First final of the day is done, and I feel ok on it.

Am debating going back and sleeping some more, even though I feel better than I did at O:MG this morning. The "bile" taste is gone, but the general nausea is still there.

90% sure it's finals stress, as I'm not running a fever.

Despise the idea of sleeping now, though I'm sure i need it. That switch in my head is from when I was depressed, and just wanted to SLEEP, and SLEEP, and SLEEP SOME MORE.

The depression did a number on me, in regards to trusting myself when I feel I should get some sleep, or may be getting too much. Such a fine line.

Add to that, the final at 5:00 is the one I'm REALLY worried about. I've got certain accounting terms and ideas down, but accounting makes my head swim. It's that whole left vs right brain capacity, I think. I'm much better at seeing intangibles, and I don't know how to explain that. Put concrete figures and ways that things HAVE to be done, and I start to feel like I'm flailing.

Add in outside factors (I've had a few things and thoughts from the past, and past judgment calls coming back to haunt me, in my head), and you've got me worn and a little frazzled at the edges.

The amused part? Today, for fun, I listened to "The Monarch of the Glen", off of "Fragile Things", an audio compilation by Neil Gaiman. Listening to him do Wednesday's voice (from American Gods) was a treat. And will finish listening to that story on my way to my next final.

Edit: Add in, that it's currently raining outside...I can hear it (2 windows in this bedroom), and for some reason, rain has always made it easier for me to sleep. One day, I'll research why that is..the varied theories that others who feel similar have devised. For now, I'll take my cue for a 2 hour nap. If my body let's me sleep that long. Though, will set the alarm for 3:00, to be safe. Plenty of time to get back to campus and take the final.

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[echoweaver.livejournal.com]

Rain makes it easier for me to sleep too. I think part of it is the same reason why people run white noise machines to sleep, and part of it is growing up in a state that gets plenty of rain. Hell, I even sleep better to thunderstorms, provided they're not too close.

You're probably right about the nausea being finals stress, though you don't necessarily run a fever if you have stomach flu. It seems like you've always had nausea and stomach trouble when you're really stressed *HUGS*. That's kind of a backhanded Good Thing, since hopefully it will be over after the final.

Best of luck.

[per_solo]

*nods* good thought, and accurate on the guess for stress hitting me hard. It always has.

All finals now done, except the major stressful one. And that's in 3 and a half hours.

I DID manage to get some more sleep just a little bit ago, that seems to have helped.

[defixione.livejournal.com]

If you're really incredibly nervous, maybe you should sit down somewhere relatively private and do a relaxation technique, like progressive relaxation. Just sit there and relax for a while and maybe you'll feel better.

There's one specific exercise that I use which can be complex and seem difficult, but once it's learned, I've found it has the effect of taking a small nap. I can send it to you some time.

[per_solo]

*nod* Send it sometime. Still need to get together with you and show you and Crys the last of "The Colour of Magic". :-)

[defixione.livejournal.com]

I can't wait!

[cori-chronicles.livejournal.com]

I hope all finals went well in the end!

I relate about the depression. I still get confused as to whether I'm tired or sleeping because I can.