Soy Un Perdador....
May. 26th, 2008 09:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
per_soloSo, this was a pretty busy weekend. Getting to hang out with Crys, doing dinner with friends on Friday, not getting to see the new Indiana Jones movie til Sunday (due to some early chaos), and getting to hang with several friends over the course of the weekend.
Ok, first, my review of the new Indiana Jones movie.
I really, REALLY liked it. My opinion has not changed...my ranking goes Raiders, Last Crusade, Crystal Skull, and Temple. But they all have always been very close for me. I like Temple of Doom a lot more than most others, but this new one was fun.
And yes, I found Shia less annoying, but I still have issue with him getting ALL of a certain type of role. :-)
After the movie, a little more drama ensued.
My girlfriends brother basically made a shotgun attack on her..one of which included an attack on me. This was done to provoke a reaction. My amusement on some of it...well, basically his statement was that I'm a fat, lazy, living in his parents basement-loser.
*heh*
Ok. Well, yes, I'm currently living in my hometown (in my former bedroom, but that's beside the point)...while doing school full time. Anyone who remembers the chaos when I was losing the apt. knows that the decision wasn't easy...and yes, there were MANY things I fucked up around that period of time, due to depression, malaise, and a genuine hatred of where everything was going. Everything was falling apart, and getting to me...and coming back down here felt like the utter height of failure.
It took me quite a while to get out of that..to focus and refocus on school, finding what I enjoy, getting through it. Coming home? Nope, one of the hardest decisions. For those who don't know, I have a helluva lot of demons down here. Demons, memories of the past, and a whole host of things that occasionally will chime into my head, causing me to doubt a lot. That's quieted down, the further I've gone. But, it's a work in progress. Anybody who seems to have all their shit together is usually hiding something.
And no, I did not do it alone. The loans? The grades? Yeah, that's me (and the fear of paying it back, but I'll get there). The many kicks from many people to actually go? The words of encouragement then (and now) mean a helluva lot. More than I typically will say, at part of my brain remembers the dark well. *shrugs*
The only thing I truly get to control? Is how I act and react to things. I can't control anyone else's reactions, or the "demons" they may be reacting or responding to. Tis one of the reasons that I love Wapsi as much as I do...that little strip helped me put a few things into perspective. :-)
Hope you all have a great day.
Ok, first, my review of the new Indiana Jones movie.
I really, REALLY liked it. My opinion has not changed...my ranking goes Raiders, Last Crusade, Crystal Skull, and Temple. But they all have always been very close for me. I like Temple of Doom a lot more than most others, but this new one was fun.
And yes, I found Shia less annoying, but I still have issue with him getting ALL of a certain type of role. :-)
After the movie, a little more drama ensued.
My girlfriends brother basically made a shotgun attack on her..one of which included an attack on me. This was done to provoke a reaction. My amusement on some of it...well, basically his statement was that I'm a fat, lazy, living in his parents basement-loser.
*heh*
Ok. Well, yes, I'm currently living in my hometown (in my former bedroom, but that's beside the point)...while doing school full time. Anyone who remembers the chaos when I was losing the apt. knows that the decision wasn't easy...and yes, there were MANY things I fucked up around that period of time, due to depression, malaise, and a genuine hatred of where everything was going. Everything was falling apart, and getting to me...and coming back down here felt like the utter height of failure.
It took me quite a while to get out of that..to focus and refocus on school, finding what I enjoy, getting through it. Coming home? Nope, one of the hardest decisions. For those who don't know, I have a helluva lot of demons down here. Demons, memories of the past, and a whole host of things that occasionally will chime into my head, causing me to doubt a lot. That's quieted down, the further I've gone. But, it's a work in progress. Anybody who seems to have all their shit together is usually hiding something.
And no, I did not do it alone. The loans? The grades? Yeah, that's me (and the fear of paying it back, but I'll get there). The many kicks from many people to actually go? The words of encouragement then (and now) mean a helluva lot. More than I typically will say, at part of my brain remembers the dark well. *shrugs*
The only thing I truly get to control? Is how I act and react to things. I can't control anyone else's reactions, or the "demons" they may be reacting or responding to. Tis one of the reasons that I love Wapsi as much as I do...that little strip helped me put a few things into perspective. :-)
Hope you all have a great day.
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Date: 2008-05-27 04:29 am (UTC)As for the drama - I'm pretty sure you're sloughing it off, and knowing that guys is coming at things from his own views which are not "The truth." He's just going to lash out at whomever isn't like him. My thoughts are with you and Crys though, as when it's family saying mean things it's extra hurtful.
You're kicking so much butt in school. I'm so proud of you!
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Date: 2008-05-27 10:40 am (UTC)Thanks for putting up with my crazy family.
And I'm proud of you too. ;)