Slowly...

[per_solo]

Slowly, Slowly I lose my mind...

Job, Convention...all of it, piled on top, amidst major turmoil...and I'm running in place, waiting to see what happens next, in order to know or understand what I should do next. I have to wait...which is something I'm not very good at...because, until I know how bad things are, I have no idea just what plan I can make to make things better.

So I wait for a phone call to tell me just how bad things are. And take small comfort that, regardless of my existence, things would be going along the same course no matter what.

Cryptic? Yeah, and for that I apologize, but it goes back to the "If things are going to hell, and I'm in this handbasket, then I've got plenty of time to panic after the fact, so I'll jsut worry and moan here until I know mroe"

That's all for now.

Comments

[filkertom.livejournal.com]

Hang in there. I know it sucks. You're not alone.

[per_solo]

Thanks. :-) Every little bit helps.

[echoweaver.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* I really want to help, and I know there's not much I can do.

If it's possible, do try to think of things you can do, even if they're redundant and might not help. Did you apply for any job listings you didn't hear back from? Send 'em another resume, and call 'em if you can. After a few days, it's acceptable to call the place you did interview and ask for an update on the process and a timeframe when you'll hear back. When I was looking for a job and feeling miserable, it did help to do a few things each day on the job hunt, so I didn't feel like I had no control over my own destiny.

And, above all, I know you're valuable. You deserve some more stability in your life, and I think you will get it. Just put one foot in front of the other.

*BIG HUGS*

[confusedjew.livejournal.com]

happy thoughts....sending happy thoughts...

[per_solo]

I know. Thanks. :-) It's just the waiting process, which I've never been very good at..it'll come together...somehow.